#now playing: BRAT by Charli XCX_
the past weekend, like the past week before it, has seen me go through a whole gamut of emotions.
the good, the bad, and everything in between, I feel I've gone through it all.
I keep telling myself that I feel very goofy for reacting so strongly about losing a website, and... I do still feel that way, but in the second part of the week, I realized that what I'm reacting to is losing the people I've interacted with, read and met on cohost. a space that truly felt special.
like I said in my previous article, cohost made me realize that I could just... do my little posts, be myself, cringe, sometimes annoying, loud, vocal about my interests and people would show up.
I think it will warrant a whole section of the article I will write about my "story with cohost" and online in general but I've come to realize that microblogging really, really isn't for me any more dude. or at the very least, not the version of it that Twitter presents as the "default".
for all its issues, Mastodon has always felt like a "quieter Twitter". but it still had Numbers™️ and was still very much trying to emulate Twitter, despite what its creator might say. so I will definitely keep using it. the fact that I'm now running my own instance is also helping me feel like I have more control over it. but it will be for the "I ate an apple today, it was very juicy" type posts.
for everything else, I had cohost, and now I have damien.zone.
at any rate! the "goals" or at least "guidelines" I want to set for myself in this space are: